yes, there are some organic food stores in my city. I live in a big (500.000+) city.
Well, my condition is actually nothing new for me, but it gets slightly worse and worse with time. I recently realized that probably the reason are antibiotics which I was taking when I was 4-5 years old. I’m having some problems with my nerves and social anxiety as well, but as I always claim – it’s social anxiety coming out from the body. Sounds weird, but I feel like that. My mind is good and I love it 😉
How do I feel today? Well, pretty much like yesterday. I feel dull, I’d like to go to bed and sleep all day.
I’d never call myself depressive. For my state, I’m very cheerful person. I’m still able to be excited about small things, but what pisses me off is that I know how my state blocks me. I have no close friends currently, since I don’t want to see anybody (or don’t want anybody to see me). I spent so many hours in bed during my life. When I was teen, I wondered why I can’t feel good being with people, while others do. I didn’t want to be myself, being so different than my counterparts.
But you know what, I still think that it’s positive experience. I believe I’ll be good soon and then, all these years of waiting will make my life wonderful. Most people are so bored with life. I’ll feel like new-born, talking to somebody, feeling relaxed. Breathing deeply. Thinking of life and being happy that I got one.