I completely understand what you mean. I know this sounds crazy but I was diagnosed with candida 8 years ago. There were times when I would feel like I didnt want to get better. Because if I started the diet and it didnt work then I would be left with no hope. It almost becomes a part of you so much that I was almost scared what it would be like to be normal again sometimes.
I will say this. I have been on the diet and heavy anti-fungals and probiotics for a year now and I would say 90% of my candida symptoms are gone. I would get really bad thrush in my mouth, gas, bloating, sore throat, constipation, and itching all over my body. All of those symptoms have almost vanished once I started on the diet and supplements. The only problem is Im still not feeling well because I found out I have adrenal fatigue and hypo-thyroid.
I guess the point Im trying to make is just stick with it. If candida is your main problem you will get better. If you eliminate the candida and still arent feeling well then there are other underlying issues at hand. Then once your candida is gone you can work on healing other problems.
I think most of us on here would agree that there is always hope. Just hang in there.