Don’t be so hard on yourself. Look at this as a fresh start. Think how long it took you to develop this condition and it will take at least that much time to recover. Be fair to your body and be positive. I’ve been on the protocol here for almost 2 months and I’m feeling better than ever. I’m sure you find relief soon. Give it time, ask questions and thanks for sharing. Don’t blame yourself for taking antibiotics I’ve taken them and I’m sure many people here have but learn from your mistakes and use it to help others. Stay positive.