I feel you, Newbie! I have almost the same kinds of reactions when I eat the stuff I am allergic to. I get SOOOO mad. I just start yelling at everybody. My family is like, what is going on?? Im sorry you have to deal with that. Its so hard. But at the same time, even though you know how youre going to act afterward, its so hard not to eat that stuff when your WHOLE body is craving it!