I think most of us reading your message hears a part of ourselves in it. Yeast destroys our cognition, focus, self-esteem and in our dark moments some of us (if honest) have wanted to end it all.
Well, as I type to you from my phone miles and miles away … please know that you are important and you are not alone.
Now, the gist here is that you must get rid of the bad (sugars, starches , pork) and replace it with the good (vegetables, eggs, good fats such as olive oil and coconut oil, prebiotics such as buckwheat, and probiotics such as megafood by megaflora). You will also need chelated molybdenum for the die off and I personally like taking 4,000 mg of vitamin c. Drink water continually and rest.
There is much more to the protocol but I wanted to be brief due to your current condition and I am sure others such as Able will chime in.
Hang in. And were here to support you.