I,for one, can certainly understand being at the end of your rope. In my 70+ years I have found myself there many times and anyone who has not and don’t understand should consider themselves very blessed indeed.
I’m new at this yeast thing and still seeking help & knowledge myself so my words of wisdom on that are non existent.
Sometimes a good nights sleep and a new day can change how we feel about everything. It’s alright to mess up and start over on anything.
I hope things go well for you, Harriett