I get that, I’m just saying it might actually be feeding the depression. I know this is hard on everyone that has it 🙁
Have you tried eating less meat? That might also help with the bloating because it can be difficult to digest. I don’t eat meat at all – I get my protein from eggs, buckwheat, oat bran, and veggies. It adds up faster than you think.
I get the weight thing too, seriously, I am 5’6″ and getting down probably below 115 by now. I stopped weighing because I know it will even out once I’m healthy again. You can talk to raster about it – he has a very positive experience with the weight loss/gain.
I also totally get the not getting to do what you want 🙁 Maybe it sounds silly to you, but I’m in a show choir and a dance troupe and I barely danced last term (had to drop out of one of the numbers and still struggled terribly to learn the others and perform well at all the shows) and had to take a leave of absence from singing, still absent this production (#3 now), and although I’m hoping to be back for the summer, I’m not making any promises. I’d rather miss a couple of shows now then feel shitty and prolong this through ten productions, you know?
I’ve actually been at this, poorly, for two years, so I guess I’ve just progressed to the point where I’m sick of dealing with this, sick of feeling like crap, and sick of food running my life, so I’d rather just push through and grin and bear it for a little while longer doing something that is truly proven to work, not by someone trying to sell me something, and just get through it so I can move on with my life. I have solos to sing and dance and three businesses to run! Candida can go f— itself and I will do whatever needs to be done to facilitate that, LOL
Just hang in there, bro <3 It's gonna happen. And I swear my depression has also lifted SO MUCH with staying strict on this. I don't even take ashwaganda, and I have barely had any "FML" thoughts in weeks. Mostly, they only come when I don't take my supplements or eat on schedule.