Thank-you for the response. Honestly, it would be more then a grieving process for me. It would break my heart to get rid of everything forever. I know you understand how I feel. I associate food/drinks with something to look forward to in life. When we have to go to work every day and do chores around the house, etc…I feel like it’s the “little big thing” that makes life great. I was always between 130-135 pounds at 5’4″ before thi sstarted happening to me and no matter what I ate I would stay the same. I never over ate but I could eat whatever. Now I’m 5″4 and between 144-147 pounds depending on the day. I know I’m not obese but I don’t feel cute anymore and I know it’s because this is slowing my metabolism. The problem is, do I essentially quit eating/drinking almost everything and get rid of the infection (and get skinnier) and not be able to go back to eating the good stuff ever again anyways or do I live with being 10 pounds (maybe will grow to more) heavier and a bad poision infection in my body. I never ate a lot of icecream, direct sugar or anything but when I first learned about my problem I realized how sugar is in everything..even white rice 🙁
I absolutely I agree that food is society. Of course we know we shouldn’t eat most of what is out there but the problem is that everyone in society does (It’s like being addicted to drinking and have someone constantly slurping a drink in front of you). It’s always there. Not to mention that 90-95% of the food in grocery stores is bad for you in some way. How does someone go shopping and be tempted by the entire store that way? It’s so hard to eat this way as well because it takes time to prepare the food (what do I bring to work, salad? I starve) and the healthy options are so much more expensive. It’s like how Glutten Free foods are priced so much higher. People like you have to pay more when you know there is no reason the food is worth more. They just charge people more because they have to buy glutten free.
I feel like it’s not fair. Of course people with celliac or even worse, diabetes or cancer or a brain tumor say the same thing. “It’s not fair, why me.” I just don’t want one of the things that makes me enjoy life be taken away from me. I could do the diet for longer than a month and slowly bring back some foods but you are right, it probably takes longer than that and how upset would I bet if I ended up getting it back when I introduced foods back? I would be in the exact same place..all that work for nothing. I’m thinking of trying the diet for a month, than taking probiotic like it’s going out of style as well as antifungals to see if I can balance out and slowly introduce things back. If it comes back, I’m thinking of choosing food and living with the infection and weight gain 🙁 I guess I’m “lucky” and at least have that choice but it doesn’t seem like a good one.
The last thing…as soon as I get sick (strep throat twice a year)..whatever I come down with and need medication, it WILL probably come back no matter what.
I’m sad. But thank-you for your honest response.