Although I knew this was true, I found it hard to stay away from sugar..
I think I was not taking this seriously enough.
I have a really hard time believing that after candida is gone, I’m going to feel as good as I wish I could feel. It scares me to put those hopes on the line, and I eat a bunch of sugar once I start seeing improvement because I’m terrified that the improvement isn’t going to be enough. I want to feel GOOD and i’m so scared that I’m not going to feel as good as I want to.
Unfortunately today I did not start the diet, I did really badly, I had a full out binge on so many sugar things…. at LEAST I stayed away from all grains. They are the worst for me.
Today I read that the purpose of candida albicans is to break down undigested proteins, and also the purpose of candida albicans is to… Decompose the human body! It is decomposing us AS we are living in our bodies. That scared me straight, I had not looked at it this way. I went to the store and bought a whole bunch of green leafy things, I’m taking this more seriously now. I’m going to get through it. I don’t want to feel like this anymore but I don’t want to forget how horrible I feel right now, either…
I know this post is long but I have one last question. If I’m going through die off, and I’m way too weak to go to night school, (sometimes I feel too weak to even think) should I cut myself some slack and stay home and rest, and make it up when I feel a bit better? A lot of the time I don’t start the diet because I’m too stressed that I’ll have to write papers while in die-off, when my mind leaves me. I feel like if I cut myself some slack and tell myself that I don’t have to go on the days where I feel horrible, I’ll be able to do the cleanse. But I need somebody to reinforce that this is an important reason to stay home from school , otherwise I’ll feel regretful/guilty.